Process is a Verb

So Jules (who has obviously been allotted more than the average 24-hours-in-a-day since she seems to have time to organize grand philanthropic events, interview literary starlets, review books with pithy panache and toss thought-provoking queries out into the universe) wants to know what we writerly folk think about “Process”. (At a recent conference, Rosemary Wells apparently said there is no such thing as process. Hmm. Makes one want to scratch one’s noggin.)

 

Here’s what I think.

Process is a verb and it’s something I do every single day. (Just ask my husband.)

 

I need to tease and sort stuff out because one big lumpy undifferentiated world is far too much to swallow whole.

 

To process is to name a thing, break it down into its smallest possible components, look at those pieces from every possible angle and through a variety of lenses, and then put it back together by articulating what’s been discovered. Preferably right at bedtime. (Just ask my husband.)

 

But really, it’s not unlike what we do as writers – especially during revision. We sit down and think, “What in sam hill was I trying to do here? Which bits work and which bits don’t? And why? Is it the point-of-view or the voice or the pacing or the narrative flow? And then, I’ve got an idea! I’m going to move this here because of a, and cut this because of b, and tweak this because of c.” 

And then we heat up our chai, which has gotten all curdley at this point, and start over. 
I mean, right?

 

That other kind of process, that Rosemary Wells says doesn’t exist? I call that practice rather than process. My personal practice includes writing something new every single day – sometimes a complete and rushy draft of a new story, sometimes a comma – and always, always, always reading my own work aloud. Yep. Just sittin’ in my chair writin’ and readin’. Oh, and also, waiting very hopefully for the lightening strike.

 

I’ll bet that’s not much different from what the rest of ya’ll are doing. Is it?

First Person

When I woke up early this morning it was cold and rainy.

Seriously, seriously chilly.

And I’ve been getting just a tad bit tired of 90-degree days so I put the kettle on and didn’t give my running shoes another thought. 

Instead I came to my desk and began transforming my latest manuscript from a 3rd-person story into a 1st-person story.

I realized last week that this had to happen but I didn’t make the time to tackle it. Probably because I was a little disgruntled. Because I had just finished it. Sigh. 

Couldn’t I have realized this rather critical detail a few weeks back? 
Y’know, so this all could’ve happened in a more orderly and efficient fashion.
Are there people out there who really lead linear lives??? 
Nevermind. Don’t tell me. I’d rather not know.

Anyway, I walked my way into it this morning and I was right! This is what it needed!

I’m not done, but I’m so happy. 
And the weather doesn’t hurt, either.

Sometimes all you need is a little change of perspective…

 

Robert’s Snow — Blogging for a Cure, Week 2

Was looking at last week’s highlighted snowflakes fun, or what? I mean, I’m sort of wishing I were independently wealthy so I could go absolutely bid-crazy on these little masterpieces! But since I’m not, a bunch of you folks are going to get the chance to pick up a flake or two. So, without further ado, here’s the schedule for Week 2 (with great big ol’ thanks to Jen Robinson, the html queen). Because the posts aren’t up yet, this list links to the participating blogs, instead of to the individual posts. You can find links to the posts themselves, and any last-minute updates, each morning at 7-Imp. Jules and Eisha have also set up a special page at 7-Imp containing a comprehensive list of links to the profiles posted so far. Also not to be missed is Kris Bordessa’s post summarizing snowflake-related contests to date over at Paradise Found.

Monday, October 22

Tuesday, October 23

Wednesday, October 24

Thursday, October 25

Friday, October 26

Saturday, October 27

Sunday, October 28

Don’t see the one you’re ready to mortgage the house for yet — or worried the competition’ll be too stiff? This is only the 2nd of many weeks of snowy wonder coming your way. Plus — NOT ALL SNOWFLAKES WILL BE FEATURED ON A BLOG, so be sure to check out the whole lot of them when you go to bid! (Here’s a note on this very point from Elaine Magliaro at Wild Rose Reader).

Now, if by some cosmic time/space disconnect you have missed out on learning about the Robert’s Snow auction, check out the Robert’s Snow auction official site. In a nutshell, it’s a really powerful way to help fight cancer and bring some gorgeous, touching, whimsical art into your home at the same time.

Poetry Friday — Home Sick

We’re just trying to keep our wits about us over here, my six-year-old and I. 
Last night she battled the fiercest ear infection. 
Actually, we battled it but she took the harshest wounds.

Our weapons?
Warm olive oil.
Old videotapes.
A hot water bottle.
A snack.
An attempt at sleep, sitting up.

Things seem a little brighter by the light of day, but I’m so tired I’m drooling. So, here’s Shel Silverstein’s Sick. Maybe it’ll make you guys laugh. That’s beyond me now, but I wouldn’t be surprised if I descend into the giggles later. In that crazy kinda way.

Sick
by Shel Silverstein

"I cannot go to school today,"
Said little Peggy Ann McKay.
"I have the measles and the mumps,
A gash, a rash and purple bumps.
My mouth is wet, my throat is dry,
I'm going blind in my right eye.
My tonsils are as big as rocks,
I've counted sixteen chicken pox
And there's one more--that's seventeen,
And don't you think my face looks green?

Read the rest here…

Dot to Dot

On Thursdays, I help with the literacy centers in my 1st grade daughter’s classroom. 
I’ve become pretty chummy with the kids and I really look forward to our time together — 
there is always some perfect bit of theater unfolding. 

I don’t know how teachers absorb all the narratives in their classrooms. I think I would pop.

Today, the kids were tasked with turning the word OCTOBER into a Halloweenyish bit of art — making Os into pumpkins, for example, or the stem of an R into a witch’s broom. (OK, so mine wouldn’t have been the most imaginative version ever…) 

I liked this little exercise — it’s sort of preparatory concrete poetry — and it made the kids want to wooooo and booooo while they worked.

But first, each student was asked to write OCTOBER in big ol’ letters — roomie enough to decorate. No problem, right? Wrong. My little buddy N was struggling. He wrote a teeny tiny version of october and then just a slightly less teeny version of october and I could tell that only teeny tiny letters were in our future. 

So I said, “Hey, N. How about this. What if I give you dot-to-dots to follow? Think you could make a great, big O?” 

He was skeptical, I could tell, but I did my part and he did his. That was one lovely O.

And then we repeated the process for the C. 

“What do you think?” I asked. “Can you take it from here?”

I stepped over to the other table to remind a chatty little group of artists to put their names on their papers and when I checked back with N, he’d done it! And guess how? Using my pencil, he’d dot-to-dotted one letter at time and then, using his pencil, he’d re-traced the letter. All the way through the final R.

Don’ t you just find that fascinating, the desire to have something to follow ? It starts so early — toddlers who can’t walk yet suddenly go truckin’ across the room carrying a toy because holding onto something allows them to feel supported. I can think of lots of ways I trick myself into feeling brave or safe enough to move forward. Can you?

Working Hard or Hardly Working

Yesterday I finished a picture book text 
(supposedly the 1st draft, but I’ve saved it as Version 6 so my math is obviously wonky).

I started this piece last April and I really love the idea and the main character’s name and her sister’s name and on and on and on. 

But.

But.

I started it six months ago and I’m on Version 6 of the 1st draft.
It has been just the teensiest bit like squeezing blood from a stone.
Sigh.

Here’s the thing. 
The three picture books I’ve sold so far all came to me like thunder — in the middle of the night or out of a daydream.
They all moved in and took over and I had no choice but to ride out the storm.

Not to say that they didn’t require work. 
All three begged for painstaking and obsessive attention — somehow frenzied and careful at the same time. 
All three rest atop a teetering mountain of earlier versions and drafts.
All three drove me to well-deserved naps and pedicures as the final revisions wrapped up.

But the work, honestly, was kind of fun. 
It was work that was intuitive and impulse-based. 
It was work that followed some woo-woo pre-ordained path.
It was work that I was driven to do.

My other manuscripts (and I’m not gonna say how many there are because I’m worried someone may tell me to get a life) have been harder. From start to finish. 
They’ve all started with some sort of constructed G.I. (Great Idea).
Then I’ve applied what I know of the craft to said G.I. 
Then I’ve revised this or that version of the G.I.
Over and over and over again. 
Character, setting, dilemma. Character, setting, dilemma.
It’s been, quite frankly, more like sausage making. 
 
And apparently not all the editors out there are sausage eaters, because these are the stories that haven’t sold. 
Even though I’ll stand by the G.I.s they sprung from. Truly, each one of them.

Which begs the questions: what am I supposed to do when I’m not being put upon by thunder? should I take up knitting? should I drop all the ideas that seem to take too much effort from the outset? should I keep a tape recorder by my bed and throw out my computer? should I keep working away when the work that is being most adored is that which feels less like work and more like love?

Huh?
Should I?

Let it Snow, Let it Snow, Let it Snow

Remember back a few weeks when I was talking about cancer and kickin’ it and the extra-special fundraiser called Robert’s Snow? Well, starting this week, the illustrators who’ve donated art to the auction are being featured on a wide variety of children’s literature blogs. You can get to know the artists up-close-and-personal and check out their snowflakes before the auction begins. Win-win. Plus, a bid on one of these unique pieces of art represents your own little part in the big, bad fight against cancer. Check it out… and chip in.

Monday, October 15

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Sunday, October 21

Poetry Friday — William Stafford

This morning, pulling the tent and tin cups out of our shed, I was thinking about William Stafford
He’s the kind of guy you think about when you’re going camping. 

Stafford wrote many, many books — about family and friends and peace and politics, but the stuff that really gets me between the ribs and shoulder blades is his poetry of place, his intimate reflections on landscape and wilderness and the natural universe. 

His Methow River Poems were actually published on Forest Service signs in the 1990s; they are that organic. 
His way of noticing and revering trees, birds, water and rock is somehow both simple and sacred.

I’m really happy about Al Gore and all the attention on climate change, but I sort of think lines like these can serve the same purpose — reminding us that we are one with the world and that there’s eversomuch to love:

Trees are afraid of storms. (Real People)

Whenever a rock finds what it likes
it hardly ever changes. (From the Wild People)

To be a mountain you have to climb alone
and accept all that rain and snow. (Silver Star)

Water likes to sing. (Pretty Good Day)

You hear the river saying a prayer for all that’s gone. (Where We Are)

How you stand here is important. (Being a Person)

I think we should keep
some of this, in case God comes back
to see what we did with it. (The Whole Thing)

This weekend we’re camping with 14 adults, 15 children and 2 dogs. 
We won’t be in motorhomes, but it’s not exactly a total wilderness adventure, either. 
Still, I’m thinking about waking up outside tomorrow morning, bubbling a pot of cowboy coffee right in the middle of last night’s coals, the kids’ faces dirty and rosy and well. 

I’m thinking I should read some of these aloud then. 

Maybe this one

Or this…

When I Met My Muse

I glanced at her and took my glasses
off—they were still singing. They buzzed
like a locust on the coffee table and then
ceased.

(Read the rest of the poem here.)

Be in the Bunk

When you’re parenting little ones, there are some dark days in terms of glamour and dignity. 

The times when you drop to your knees and crawl out of your baby’s room so as not to disturb the milky stupor you just nursed her into, even though the baby books told you not to…

The times when you sing Tender Shepard all the way from Atlanta to Chicago even though the flight attendants start meeting your gaze with a glare…

The times when so many little arms and legs end up in your bed that you flee into your child’s upper bunk to try to get a little sleep yourself.

(And do me a favor, if by some miracle or superhuman self-restraint you haven’t had these moments as a mom or dad, could you not mention that? ‘Cause the rest of us are trying to keep our morale up around here.)

So call it desperate justification if you will, but I’ve been thinking lately that these moments are valuable if you’re a children’s writer. Because WORSE than any of them would be not knowing what it is to crawl across hardwood on your hands and knees, not remembering how to sing Tender Shepard just because you’re in your 30’s, not experiencing a night’s sleep in a top bunk wedged between a stuffed dog and a sippy cup.

I think the whole idea behind writing books with heart is that we’ve got to have perspective — their perspective — on what is comforting or painful, frightening or funny, easy or hard. And maybe being able to put ourselves there with them (on the floor, in the bunk, in the moment) every so often, even though we’re The Parents (capital T, capital P), is the way to go. 

Maybe sometimes it oughta be at least as much about their dignity as it is about ours.

My kids aren’t crawling or sipping from sippy cups anymore, and they’d prefer that I learn the songs to High School Musical these days. But I’m finding a little bit of comfort in thinking we came out of that sleep-deprived and blurry time with a pretty good sense of ourselves and of each other.  

And now I think I’d better get to work…

No School!

School in our district was out of session today — with the official excuse being parent-teacher conferences — but both of our teachers offered to meet afterschool last week, so we were totally free-n-easy today! 
(I love teachers who believe in life outside the ivory tower, or beige box, as the case may be).

Here’s what we made of the day:

Sleep: Both girls slept right up ’til the time school would’ve started this morning.

Organization: Elder daughter sorted out her fabric bin, younger daughter found and rescued all the treasures from underneath her bed, and I put away a whole weekend’s worth of laundry.

Costume creation: Um, Halloween is like, this month. Right. So, off to Goodwill where we acquired a few missing components of the little lamb costume and the Dio de los Muertos skeleton witch costume. Oh, how I heart Goodwill and her assorted thrify cousins.

Lunch: Our favorite free-day lunch is at this peaceful little macrobiotic place where my girls ask for seconds and we clear our own plates. Even if we skipped supper tonight, I’d feel good about what went in today.

Play: One friend per daughter arrived after lunch and within two hours I’d witnessed card games, tag games, face painting, reading aloud and a friendship ceremony.

Work: Not the kind of day to plumb my creative depths, so instead I updated the books and bio pages of my Web site — one of those things I’ve been meaning to get to but it never seems to make the cut. I’m so glad it finally has.

Sigh.
I don’t know about you, but I think 3-day weekends oughta be the norm…